Case of De Ja Vooooo (however the fuck you spell it I dont Care)

FTK RUNS WRONG NUMBER. We fucking come through at wrong number every friday so now because this kid wants to go and throw a party there I'm suppose to just not show up??? FUCK THAT. I showed up tonight. With the possiblity of getting fucked up by his boys. Did I care? NO. I didnt give a shit. I went there for one person and one person only. I went there for one person and I couldnt even fucking talk to her because if i did I would have gotten jumped. I had people watching my actions the whole fucking night. If i would have even spoken to her it would have been me and 4 of my boys against the whole entire bar. FUCK THAT. I aint stupid. So i stay away...........ONLY TO FUCKING HEAR THAT SHE WAS TALKING WITH HIM AND FIGHTING WITH HIM. Fighting with him because she found out that he had sex with another girl. This obviously upset her. Why u may ask? BECAUSE SHES STILL FUCKING IN LOVE WITH HIM. IF SHE WASNT IN LOVE WITH HIM SHE WOULDNT HAVE GOTTEN UPSET, SHE WOULDNT HAVE EVEN CARED. But seeing that it did upset her showed me that she is not fully over him. This is exactly what happened when i was with Lindsay. She told me she was over her ex. She saw him at Dublins kissing another girl, she broke down, cried, slapped him, and that was it. She talked to me and told me that she didnt care she just over reacted, then a week later they were seeing each other again and I was out of the picture. I'm not trying to get fucked over like that again. No sir. I know a bad situation when i see one. I have people pulling me over to the side telling me that I should just turn my back and walk away. Should I??? I have no idea. All i know is i put myself in the position to get hurt again by falling for a girl that people claim is simply "CONFUSED". After witnessing what when on tonight I truly beleive she might be. I swear to god I just wanna cry right now. And knowing me I'm probably going to.

I cant let this bring me down. I got too much shit to look foward to and I'm not going to lose my focus. I'm GOING TO BE A FUCKING MARINE. I'm going running tomorrow first thing in the morning, RAIN, SLEET, OR SNOW I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM RUNNING.